Growing up is hard work.

Well it doesn't have to be. I know it's really easy to blame it on your parents or circumstances that "happened to you" but the truth is as soon as your old enough to make the choice between apple juice or grape juice in your sippy cup, you can decide what your life will be like, you just may not know it yet. We grow up relying on our parents to guide us because they tell us right from wrong, their bigger than us and well just because they said so :) when in reality we can choose when to throw a tantrum or not and if were going to cry over spilled milk. As you get older you continue to ask questions about things and rely on your family and friends to give you the "right" answer, so then you evolve believing exactly what they believe and it's all a vicious circle. What if we never asked questions and just grew up relying on our own knowledge aquired before birth? Do you think we would still figure things out, like how to hold a fork or how to chew? How to ride a bike or drive a car? What if we just had to figure it all out on our own instead of other people putting their ideas in our heads and us thinking we had to believe them too?? Imagine figuring out all on your own how to fly a kite for the first time, how exciting!! I think we would be just fine.

Now i don't mean to say that all decisions parents make are wrong or bad, there is no wrong or bad there just is, and it's all practice. I know that mostly all parents and family members do and say things out of love and not wanting to see anyone get hurt, but why ?? Does hurting have to be a bad thing, or can it just be another way to learn valuable lessons?? What if everytime you did something that didn't work out the way you thought it would, your family cheered and jumped up and down and gave you high fives and said "Great job, now go try something else and see if that works for you!!!!" would you mind making mistakes then ?? Why don't we do that?? Why is it so hard to let go and let our kids or friends or lovers make their own choices and see what works for them?? It's still something i work on everyday. I know for a fact that if every kid grew up with people sourrounding them who always cheered them on and never made them feel bad for the decisions they made, our world would be full of ALOT less harm, pollution, pain, and suffering. So why not start now, it's never too late.

My poor daddy had such a handful with me growing up! I did the opposite of what he said just to piss him off, i lied and told him i was going to be places i never was, i had sex with boys and didn't tell him, i smoked cigarettes and wore skimpy clothing, i did and said thing that were mean and hurtful just because it was cool and i was mad, all the time. To be honest, looking back if my dad had just said "good job honey, did that work for you?? No, well just go try something else" I may have loosened up a bit, but i would have made all the same choices for the most part. That's ok with me because i did make those choices sooner or later and i did decide what worked and what didn't for me and i'm proud of how far i've come, although i would have done all those things without so much rebellious blood flowing through my veins. My parents were doing the best they could with what they had at that moment and i love them for that. Most parents are doing what they can with what they have at that particular moment, whether it looks like it or not, it's all a matter of choices. Take it easy on your family, it's all out of love <3

I am 25 years young and as i progress in this physical realm i notice more and more how i am not a physical being at all but a being of light who has taken shape in this beautiful body i inhabit at the moment. I learn new things about myself everyday, emotions and thoughts that i already had i just remember them now. I am already complete in every way possible and i already possess everything i need, and nothing physical holds real value to me. Don't get me wrong i love to shop as much as the next girl but when it comes down to spending time with the people i love and going to a concert, my heart makes that decision for me everytime. Whenever i feel myself getting ready to derail i stop, take a deep breath, and ask "Is the choice i'm about to make right now going to help me grow??". Now i don't always choose what i know is right and i see where that takes me and if i don't like it then next time i know to choose what i knew was right for me all along. It's all a process of creation and every person is different so don't expect your experience to be exactly like anyone else's, your life and your lessons are all tailored to your needs and to what is going to help you evolve. All you have to do is sit back, say "YES!" and enjoy the ride.

Remember you are love and you are light. You are never alone and you have the power to make your life as you so choose. There are no mistakes, just lessons. Let love and be loved. Namaste.